when i was little

okay so something awesome happened and it involves a story so i thought i would write it down so anytime i want to remember it i will. back in 1986 a movie came out called The Transformers. Now i was unborn and not even being though of as an option but my brother got the movie and Recorded it onto this thing called a VHS tape... when i was little a would watch the cartoons and finally one day my brother handed me a tape and told me to put it in... it was this old movie and i loved it... it wasnt that i loved the story and robots and adventure... but i loved everything about it... including the music... now ever since that awesome day i have been searching for these 2 songs that stuck with me i mean time to time i would break out into song because i loved them...im even sure i marked the scenes when the songs came on... i was young so all this was awwwww cute u know what i mean... well thanks to modern technology and about 2 hours of work and 11 years later i found them... and i know it sounds weird and kinda sad but of everything i have going on right now and all the stress the most amazing moment was turning on the songs and just listening to them... again its insane crazy... but it was the idea of it all... my brother gave me so much and i never really thanked him for it ... and its weird that this one thing matters most but at at time when the whole fucking world is just falling to shit... its so awesome to remember the past and the awesome innocent things im my life...

who be i

As some one pursuing a Masters in Education it seems like all i do is sit in class and do activities Elementary students would do. Which lets face it is awesome since i am at heat still 10... Generally when I am in the classroom i hate being the teacher... it signifies dominance that all in my reach shall answer to me... and i truly hate that... I am sure that people will argue that dominance is required and in a small number of instances i will agree with you... i feel like as one of the students i connect more... and its the connection that in all fairness makes the child comfortable... if you stay away from friendships then everything will work out... i remember my first class i walked into was a 4th grade class so out of control that the teacher threw her hands up and asked if i wanted to teach a lesson... on my first day of my first class... i looked down pulled out a lesson sat down at a desk and just went with it... i had no clue what i was doing... again first class... i had so much fun... we went around in a circle playing a game where you guess something about the other person... they were quiet the whole time not even being to loud and rambunctious... and i remember leaving that classroom and walking out to catch my ride and knowing this is what i want to do... i want to be the one responsibility for these children... the one who cares about them enough to provide them with key skills and responsibilities to achieve the goals... This is who i am... an educator of the future.
I was born in Mannheim Germany, and after three years moved to a city on the Rhein Neckar river called Heidelberg... This town was famous in WWII when the Allies left it vertually untouched because of the beauty that surrounded it... i grew up in a town outside Heidelberg a suburb of Leimen, Nussloch or as the southern freind i had Nut loch... i went to American schools but never forgot that i had this great opportunity to branch out and experiance what not many Americans can while there i met freinds German freinds mostly thanks to the three year rule the army has... there were 5 of us who went all the way throught the school system... which is amazing because people moved all the time...
I graduated high school an average student who loved procastinating and using his fathers name to benefit him... I was accepted into the Unversity of New England only 2 weeks before i left to the states to get settled... when i arrived at UNE i met a few awesome people who soon became my freinds... there was Jake a wrestler who liked to smoke weed and hove fun cooking and laughing, Cameron who is from Virginia and the only guy i knew who brought guns to college and shot them off at a gun range, and then there was Luke, a tall loud guy from Rhode Island funniest guy ever loved to just sit back drink and laugh... I left UNE because i couldnt handle it financialy and for what i was paying i wasnt getting enough support... so i tranfered to The Universiy of Southern Maine where i entered into the liberal arts degree program set asside for Ed majors... Its fun being here... its a biggere diversity of people then the stuck up snobs that i lived with at UNE... nicer people more understanding of what it means to be from a different background...
I am a guy who likes to save the best for last so to finish off the quick story that is my life i want to tell you about the girl who is very special to me... Ashley Nichole Cozart... yeah if she were to read this she may very well yell at me for using her full name... but in short she is my ace she is the one who in the past 3 and a half years has changed my life... she always says that we changed each others life and i dont know if thats true but i do know that i love her more than anything... she is my everything... my my best freind... my person i tell everything to... and the one i miss the most... the one i know i want to spend the rest of my life with her... i truely deeply love her...
so this is me chris a guy who grew up over seas dealing with the hindering military policies and German goverment, who went to American High Schools but partied in German Bars... who met probably the greatest girl ever... this is who i be